The Human Experience

I’m not going to pretend to know everything about life because 1. I’m only 22 years old 2. Who does? But yesterday I had a nice conversation in which one of my favorite topics was discussed: drama.

She asked: “Why am I so dramatic?” and out of nowhere the answer I gave was: “Because it’s part of being a human, we enjoy being drama queens”. I started rumbling around with some ideas, but it stayed on my mind after she fall asleep. There are so many directions this topic can take that it would be impossible to take a shot on each of them, so I will just bring up the ones that I can handle (or at least I think I can).

The first thing is that emotions are natural. We can’t or won’t get rid of them anytime soon even though people is trying to avoid some of them, for example, shame. Is not that we enjoy feeling shame, but the experience of feeling is something beautiful because it takes away flatness of your life. We are not seeking for a broken heart, but it’s the risk we take when we ask our crush out, by pursuing love we are also taking a chance of feeling one of the worst feelings in the catalogue. If you let yourself fall in love, you may be heart broken at the end of the road. That’s part of the human experience. And we like it.

Even if you are like me and you don’t feel like you like drama, well you might be an introverted drama king. I realized this as I listened to my Spotify playlist. Some of us just love music period. In my case is because only music (and maybe art {and maybe sports, sometimes}) let me express my real emotional status. If you’re feeling good you might play a goofy dance-along song like Wham!’s song “Wake me up before you go-go” or the other way around you expect that song to take you out of your sadness. If this is a thing that works for you, well you love drama.

Not being dramatic is impossible, unless you’re a psycho. But it is quintessential in this thing I call “The human experience”.



5 Albums That Influenced My Teen Years

This is a ranking I build in the process of re-discovering myself. Music is a HUGE part of my life and during my early teen years I started to choose my own music for the first time. With an important influence of MTV Latino and the ‘Top 10’ show they schedule several times per day I met some new bands with their albums. In this ranking there is only one exception to that rule and is number 5.

5. ‘Libertad’ – Velvet Revolver – July 3rd, 2007

My favorite band of all time is Guns N’ Roses, that started with me playing the electric guitar. I explored a little more during 2007 and just then discovered that Guns N’ Roses broke up in 1996. I followed their careers individually. The ‘Chinese Democracy’ album with only Axl Rose from the original core was trash in my ears, so I chose the other part of the core: Slash, Duff and Matt in Velvet Revolver playing along former Stone Temple Pilots’s singer Scott Weiland.


Even though this album doesn’t have their greatest hits like ‘Fall to pieces’ or ‘Slither’ it was the one that I found in CD form. I heard it repeatedly and learned a lot of the songs in the guitar pursuing my dream of becoming a rockstar like Slash.

Favorite Song: The Last Fight

Fun Fact: This is one of three albums that Scott Weiland wrote sober.

4. ‘Amantes Sunt Amentes’ – Pxndx – October 2nd, 2006

Pxndx is a mexican band so it makes sense that I met them first on MTV Latino. It was 2006 and Punk/Emo rock was leading the new age of rock with bands like My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy and Thirty Seconds To Mars (2/3). Mexico rocked with them and Pxndx was the one band that I liked from that country.

The ‘Narcisista por excelencia’ (An excellent narcissist) music video top the charts of MTV’s Top 10 for weeks finishing the year as the 40th most requested music video of the year. This song alone made me buy the Amantes Sunt Amentes album on the local record shop. There I heard for the first time ‘Procedimientos para llegar a un común acuerdo’ (Steps to get a mutual agreement) and ‘Los malaventurados no lloran’ (Unluckys don’t cry) two songs that I hear to this day as part of my Early 2000 Spotify playlist.


Favorite Song: Procedimientos para llegar a un común acuerdo.

Fun Fact: ‘Los Malaventurados No Lloran’ music video finished 2nd in MTV’s Top 100 most requested 2007.

3. A Beautiful Lie – Thirty Seconds To Mars – October 30th, 2005

What a long run for Jared, Shannon and Tomo. The funny thing about this band is that I listened to this album only during 2005-07 and then forgot about them because of the break up rumors that started to grow. Five years later I would find a whole new world with them because of James Durbin’s performance of Closer to the Edge in American Idol.

My first encounter with this album was because of the music video of ‘The Kill’ in MTV’s Top 10. It was absolutely phenomenal. Not only the music, but the video itself. I liked the band, but it was just one song and I wasn’t in a rush for new music. After this “From Yesterday’s” music video was launched and it was another jaw-dropping experience, so I took my few savings to buy A Beautiful Lie to the record shop. I listened to this album religiously for some weeks and discovered some fascinating songs and more than that: experiences. Songs like ‘Was it a dream’ or ‘A Modern Myth’ are something else.

Favorite song: From yesterday

Fun fact: From Yesterday music video finished 4th in MTV’s Top 100 most requested of 2007.

2. Stadium Arcadium – Red Hot Chilli Peppers – 9th May, 2006

This is John Frusciante’s last album as the Chilli Peppers lead guitarist. That fact alone can make someone buy this.

I knew the Chilli Peppers or ‘The Red Hot’ as we know it here in South America long before this album broke the music industry. I already had the Californication and Blood, Sugar, Sex & Magik LP’s in my collection and their Live ‘Off The Map’ DVD so it was natural that the moment I saw ‘Dani California’s’ music video on MTV I would rush the local record shop to get this gem. And so I did.

Not only this album is essential in my teen years because of the music, but because it worked as a social tool for me. The day after I bought the CD I brought it to school and played it on my class stereo, we all rocked and loved ‘Snow (Hey Oh)’ and ‘Tell Me Baby’ but I had my own favorites in ‘Stadium Arcadium’ and ‘Slow Cheetah’. This taste changed with the years and now I enjoy the hidden ones the most like ‘Wet Sand’ and ‘Animal Bar’ both masterpieces of The Red Hot.

We miss you Frusciante.

Favorite Song: [Teen me] Stadium Arcadium [Actual me] Wet Sand.

Fun Fact: Stadium Arcadium won 5 GRAMMY awards in 2007.

1. The Black Parade – My Chemichal Romance – 23th October, 2006Image result for the black parade

It was listening to ‘Famous Last Words’ that I started thinking about this ranking and in the end it was this the album that influenced me the most during my teen years. Maybe it was something to do with their influences that matched my genetic music taste in Queen, Led Zeppelin and AC/DC (thanks Dad!). But with time I realized that it was one condition and one alone that made me love this album so much.

In a world ruled by pop culture and the death of guitar predominance I felt a little bit discouraged in my dream to be a guitarist. Suddenly MTV’s Top 10 showed me ‘Welcome to the Black Parade’ and I listened to a three-movement song with a dramatic edge. But even more important: It was the comeback of the melodic guitar solo. I understood this very recently, but it is what made me buy three different versions of the album in the now dead local record shop.

This ‘melodic guitar solo’ comeback can be heard in MCR album and it was the first time that I did hear some hope for my dream from a new band. There was still music.

Favorite song: Famous Last Words

Fun fact: My cousin had the biggest crush ever on Gerard Way, that can be a factor too.

Honorable mentions: “Infinity on High – Fall Out Boy” / “Black Ice” – AC/DC / “A Fever You Can’t Sweat” – Panic! At the Disco

The word of my life

Hey, I’m back. I thought writing was over for me, because I did it as a kind of ‘summer thing’ while I was bored, but life just gave me something I really needed to write about. I think I found the word of my life. I am only 22 and I genuinely think this is it.

So this is the word: Mamihlapinatapai.

Yeah, I am still unable to spell it right without checking first. This word is magical, because is that kind of word that you can use to describe that weird feeling you can’t explain. Actually it is in The Guiness Book of World Records registered as the ‘most succinct word’ in the world. Yeah, that exists.

This is what it means (even though is also considered one of the hardest words to translate):

“A look shared by two people, each wishing that the other would initiate something that they both desire but which neither wants to begin.”

Beautiful, isn’t it? This must be my favorite feeling in the world. That is why it is so important for me. But it gets better. It has another possible translation, that actually is another of my favorite moments in life:

“It is that look across the table when two people are sharing an unspoken but private moment. When each knows the other understands and is in agreement with what is being expressed. An expressive and meaningful silence.”

Almost the longest paragraph of this text.

The best part about this word is that it is a Yaghan word. The Yhagan were located near Tierra del Fuego in the Chilean Patagonia, the exact place were I was raised as a child. I lived 14 years in that place and never heard this word before.

Well, now I did and it is going to be written on my skin soon and forever.

A story of Gold

Most of you people come from countries of success. If you’re from the USA then is not about winning a gold medal but how much we got last Olympics. I come from Chile and until the year 1998 our best achievement was a bronze medal and a third place in the football World Cup we host in 1962. We were no one, until tennis.

First we had one of the most talented Tennis players that ever existed: Marcelo ‘Chino’ Ríos. He was an ass in and out of the field, but his backhand shot was absolutely magical and he has some of the most unbelievable shots I have seen. In 1998 he defeated Andre Agassi (on his prime) to win Key Biscayne and get the first ever Latin American number one ranking on the Open Era. And he did that effortless. This was the best achievement Chile had at the time, we flood the streets and celebrate as it was a victory of our own. We did nothing and he gave us joy.

But this is not what I’m here to tell you. I’m here because today we celebrate 13 years since we got our first Gold Medal at the Olympics. It was in Athens 2004 in front of maybe 800 people in the Men’s Double Finals. The task was not easy, but we had the closest thing to Hercules and Aquiles you can imagine. We had them:

Nicolás Massú and Fernando González

I was 9 at the time. My dad introduced me to tennis from a very young age and even tho he was far away I woke up because I knew this was something important. Even my mother – who is not a very enthusiastic tennis fan – was awake by my side in frount of our 14′ square TV all the way south to Punta Arenas. Near the Antarctica.

I can write books about the journey but you can check it out on the web. The most relevant aspects of this tournament was that they are not Double’s specialist and they were still competing for Bronze (Gonzalez) and Gold (Massu) in the Men’s Singles bracket. Gonzalez had already won Bronze by defeating USA’s Taylor Dent in a 16-14 third set and Massu was scheduled the next day to play against Mardy Fish for the gold medal.

Before the final they defeated the favorites Bryan brother’s (arguably the best Double’s couple ever to play the game) on their prime and they had some amazing wins in the Single bracket like Massu’s win against Carlos Moya and Gonzalez defeating 2nd seeded Andy Roddick. They were hungry. The final was against the German couple composed by Nicolas Kieffer and Rainer Schüttler.

In the final they were down two sets to one and the fourth got to a tie-break. Germany got to a 6-2 lead with four Gold Medal Points, it was over and everyone knew it except for Massu and Gonzalez. It is never over for them. They came back from the deficit and forced a fifht set, this was Athens and the myth was forging itself. Who needs Homer when he have these two?

They got to a 4-4 score and with an amazing Massu’s forehand, Chile broke Germany and approached to it’s first Gold Medal. 108 years of modern Olympics and no Gold Medals for this country. Almost 200 years of history and no success ever, only shades of what Rios did were hanging on Gonzalez service at last. They did it after a tense final game, they won. Gold Medal for Chile. The national anthem was played for the first time ever on greek soil.

I was with my mom at the time and we were both crying. A nine year old who knows nothing about life and a mother who only knows about failure. I still cry to this day whenever I tell the legend these two forged together. The next day Massu proved to be a golden hero again and defeated Fish to earn a double gold medal achievement that no one EVER will get again. Not Federer, not Nadal, no one. Ever.

I still cry to this day for what they’ve done. Thanks Feña. Thanks Nico.

They are superheroe’s and for cape they carry the chilean flag with pride.